Beating cancer is a triumph. But just because you’ve crossed the finish line doesn’t mean the race is over.
What many survivors don’t expect — and what too few people talk about — is what comes after. The anxiety after cancer that doesn’t quiet down. The memories that ambush you at the most unexpected moments. The way certain smells can send you right back to a place you never wanted to be.
That’s not weakness. That’s PTSD, and more typically, Complex PTSD because the events keep recurring. And it’s very real.
Cancer qualifies as a traumatic event because it threatens your life and your body in the most profound way possible. But unlike a single traumatic incident, cancer keeps delivering. Every diagnosis appointment, every medi-port installation, every chemotherapy infusion, every scan, every procedure — each one is another layer of trauma stacked on top of the last. The terror doesn’t just happen once. It gets reinforced, over and over again.
Many cancer survivors experience avoidance and flashbacks for a decade or more after treatment ends. And the triggers can be surprisingly specific. The smell of plastic tubing. The scent of a particular antiseptic. Odors that seem harmless to everyone else can send a survivor into a full panic response. Remember — the sense of smell is wired directly into the brain. It bypasses every filter and goes straight to the emotional core.
That plastic smell when bags of “things” are opened. That “off gassing” of plastic makes me nauseated. Even in my own kitchen, decades later, I can open a brand-spanking new ZipLoc bag, get a whiff and I can see green scrubs, hear the clanging of instruments, and the beeping of the machines. I’ve learned to hold my breath. For me, that will never go away. It’s a small remembrance of beating the odds, standing strong in the face of impossible cruelty, and winning. Yeah, I’ll take it.
We fight like hell to survive cancer. Don’t surrender to the trauma that followed it. Trauma recovery is possible, and trauma therapy that specializes in medical trauma can help you process what your body actually went through — not just what your mind remembers.
We deserve to heal from all of it.
Building a stronger you, one day at a time, Dr. Claudia